{"id":2272,"date":"2022-04-03T11:24:00","date_gmt":"2022-04-03T10:24:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/eszter-maura.eu\/?p=2272"},"modified":"2022-05-06T09:45:31","modified_gmt":"2022-05-06T08:45:31","slug":"","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/eszter-maura.eu\/fr\/momentos-03-21-04-01-2022\/","title":{"rendered":"","raw":""},"content":{"rendered":"","protected":false,"raw":""},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false,"raw":""},"author":1,"featured_media":2338,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_en_post_content":"Momentos are small, personal journal entries I write every day (well, mostly). The name and the format are from Niall Doherty, and used with his permission.\n\nThe weird date formats are intentional .\n

03. 21. Monday<\/span><\/h3>\nCardio targets are rarely accessible, and progress in the gym difficult to measure - we rarely repeat workouts. Each time I skip a few weeks, like now, it feels I\u2019ve lost all I\u2019d gained the months before. <\/span>\n\nAnd then I go to the gym, still under the cold that kept me away and heavily medicated to keep the corresponding asthma flare-up at bay - and do the 1k row in 4:45, comfortably under the 5-minute target. Twice.<\/span>\n

03. 22. Tuesday<\/span><\/h3>\nI used to enjoy arguing with people about their nonsensical stances, be it about the \u201cfemale principle\u201d or whether certain kinds of salt are better than others. In hindsight, I think I was naive enough to think I could convince them. <\/span>\n\nI pick my battles a lot more carefully these days.<\/span>\n\nIt makes my life easier, but it makes it a lot more difficult to connect to others, too.<\/span>\n

03. 23. Wednesday<\/span><\/h3>\nNope, not today.<\/span>\n

03. 24. Thursday<\/span><\/h3>\nNot today, either. I never realised the enormity of a task that, no matter how small in itself, has to be repeated EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. <\/span>\n\nI might have copied the format, but I already see I need to create a better system for myself. Even if I do manage to build the habit.<\/span>\n

03. 25. Friday<\/span><\/h3>\nTechnology tested, slides ready, playlist made, notes finished. Not entirely sure I\u2019ll be able to sleep tonight - more often than not, I can\u2019t when stressed -, but I\u2019m as prepared as can be. <\/span>\n\nIt feels strange no to be in a last-minute rush.<\/span>\n

03. 26. Saturday<\/span><\/h3>\nMy brain tells me my success wasn\u2019t really, that I didn\u2019t really reach my goal, that it should have been better.<\/span>\n\nBut, for once, I disagree with it. I feel elated. I want to celebrate.<\/span>\n\nSo I called a couple of friends,and my partner, and we went out to eat the best shrimp croquettes in town. <\/span>\n\nLife is good today.<\/span>\n

03. 27. Sunday<\/span><\/h3>\nShe\u2019s often made it clear that she thinks I\u2019m a weirdo. And yet, I wanted to make friends with her - but our conversation often felt awkward and forced to me.<\/span>\n\nFigure my surprise when, just the two of us at our regular friend-group hangout, we chatted easily for almost two hours.<\/span>\n

03. 28. Monday<\/span><\/h3>\nI have both not <\/span>that<\/span><\/i> much and an ovewhelming amount of things to do. At the same time. I\u2019m paralysed.<\/span>\n

03. 29. Tuesday<\/span><\/h3>\nI don\u2019t think I\u2019ll ever undersand why a man from the US would think it appropriate to explain, not just once but several fucking times, that \u201cthe Arabs ruled the Iberian peninsula until 1492\u201d - to a bunch of Spanish women.<\/span>\n

03. 30. Wednesday<\/span><\/h3>\nI wrote out all the thing I need to get done before leaving for Hungary, and nicely scheduled each item. On paper, it almost looks feasible.<\/span>\n\nIf only I didn\u2019t know that my whole schedule will go off the rails right away tomorrow morning.<\/span>\n

03. 31. Thursday<\/span><\/h3>\nLet\u2019s put those potatoes into the oven now, they take a while.<\/span>\n\nWell, if I still want to go out, we have to eat something else, there\u2019s not enough time.<\/span>\n\nBy the time dinner\u2019s ready, I will be super late.<\/span>\n\nSurely I\u2019m not going to bike across town, in this miserable weather, without having dinner, to be late for a meetup? <\/span>\n\nNoone will miss me anyways.<\/span>\n

04. 01. Friday<\/span><\/h3>\nThere\u2019s something about having a friend who can come over lunch and comfortably stay for the afternoon while we both have to work. <\/span>\n\nI kept excusing myself, of course - the plan had been to actively spend the afternoon with my friend, not just have him here while I do my stuff. <\/span>\n\nWe did have time to make some cookies together, though.<\/span>","_en_post_name":"momentos-03-21-04-01-2022","_en_post_excerpt":"I never realised the enormity of a task that, no matter how small in itself, has to be repeated EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.\u00a0\n\nI might have copied the format, but I already see I need to create a better system for myself. Even if I do manage to build the habit.","_en_post_title":"Momentos 03.21 - 04.01.2022","_fr_post_content":"","_fr_post_name":"","_fr_post_excerpt":"","_fr_post_title":"","_nl_post_content":"","_nl_post_name":"","_nl_post_excerpt":"","_nl_post_title":"","edit_language":"fr","advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[6,76],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-2272","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","6":"hentry","7":"category-blog","8":"category-momentos","10":"post-with-thumbnail","11":"post-with-thumbnail-large"},"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/eszter-maura.eu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/DSC_2226-2.jpg?fit=1456%2C1091&ssl=1","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p4KP79-AE","jetpack_likes_enabled":false,"jetpack-related-posts":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/eszter-maura.eu\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2272","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/eszter-maura.eu\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/eszter-maura.eu\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eszter-maura.eu\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eszter-maura.eu\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2272"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/eszter-maura.eu\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2272\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2339,"href":"https:\/\/eszter-maura.eu\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2272\/revisions\/2339"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eszter-maura.eu\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2338"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/eszter-maura.eu\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2272"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eszter-maura.eu\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2272"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/eszter-maura.eu\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2272"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}