Never noticed how numb I\u2019d gotten until I started to feel again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019d put on layers upon layers upon layers of caution, compliance and cynicism, thick and drab and shapeless, not quite like clothing nor exactly part of me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It took two months in a port city, two months alone in this place before cracks started to appear in this armour, thick and drab and cold and constricting;
it took but a few days from that point until it all crumbled into dust.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My skin feels all new and raw underneath.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
It burns and chafes and stings under the sun and in the sand and the saltwater
as I wade into the sea, life-giving once more, to swim beyond the breaking waves and the boats and the fortress that still protects me,
floating, unknowing what sort of water stings my eyes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
My soul is laid bare before the ocean and filled with songs again,
laments though most of them be.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n\n
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